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Matt and I are celebrating our one year anniversary today.  I can hardly believe that it has been a full year since the most amazing man in the world told me that he loves me.  And I can hardly believe that I felt the same way when he said it.  It came so out of the blue, that it was a crazy feeling.  I actually made a post that day, but I had kept it as a private entry for a while.  Here it is...

( Here ya go )

It really is amazing, what he and I have with one another.  I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him.
So, here's some pictures of prezzies!  He still hasn't gotten his present yet :(  Soon, though!


Here is Aslan pre-enjoying the presents!


Here's Aslan enjoying his part of the present - the empty paper :P


A beautiful card, a cd, a coin purse with kitteh's on it!  Chocolate, and a wonderful letter :)  

He's the sweetest, ever :)

I've just got some lowfat cookies in the oven.  Chocolate chip.  Well, not quite "chip."  I had a bar of Lindt's Dark Chocolate with Chili in it, and I chopped that up and put it in there, since I didn't have any chips.  I know that probably defeats the whole "low-fat" bit of it, but it's so good!

My nephew is super cute.  He's over a week old now :)  I got to hold him the other day, and he was bobbing his little head around like Stevie Wonder!

I look a little stoned, but I just have this habit of kind of partially closing my eyes for pictures.  Oh well!  I don't care, he's a cutie!

Work is going alright.  I went a week without working at my second job, so that kind of sucks.  I did need the rest though.  I was beat from the cold I just got over.  I've still got the cough that just won't quit.  Oh well.  I'll make the money up elsewhere, I suppose.

Matt and I's 1 year anniversary is on Saturday.  I got his present in the mail the other day, but he only let me open my cookies and nothing else :P  I had a little delay in his present so I just sent it out today.  Hopefully it gets there by Saturday, but I'm not holding my breath...
On the immigration front - nada as of yet.  :(  I know, we have a lot of waiting left, but I was hoping they'd at least have done SOMETHING with it!

Now, I know that dentists are expensive, but for Christ's sake...  $175 to clean one quarter of my mouth?
I'm going to the Community Clinic, and it's on a sliding scale so I got a bit of a discount, but seriously... $175 for a quarter of the mouth.  Does anyone else ever have to pay that much????
It's times like these that I wish I still had dental insurance.
My dental bill is like $330.40 and I have a whopping $301 in savings that I have busted my ass to work for and save, and now it's all completely wiped out.  
It's just so disheartening because that's the money I was saving for when I go to London in October.  I'm thankful it's there, and I know I'll be able to add more to it in the next 3 months, but still... It's just so damn frustrating to feel like you're getting one step ahead, only to be knocked back two.

Depends on who the visitor is...  If it were Matt, I'd say my boobs.  Anyone else - Deception Pass Bridge :D

I just got the NOA (Notice of Action) in the mail today from the USCIS!!!!!! We have a case number now! Yay yay yay!!!!!  I've registered on the website and now we can check the status and I also signed up for e-mail alerts for anything regarding our case!
We are SO on our way!

The people who have to suck poo out of Porta-Potties.  (Though I've heard they  make great money!)

OMGOMGOMGOMG  It was delivered today in California!!! They now have the immigration paperwork in their hands :)

Label/Receipt Number: 0308 3390 0001 1415 7317
Class: Priority Mail^®
Service(s): Delivery Confirmation^™
Status: Delivered

Your item was delivered at 7:01 AM on June 10, 2009 in LAGUNA NIGUEL, CA 92607.


Detailed Results:

	Delivered, June 10, 2009, 7:01 am, LAGUNA NIGUEL, CA 92607
	Arrival at Unit, June 10, 2009, 6:58 am, LAGUNA NIGUEL, CA 92607
	Processed through Sort Facility, June 10, 2009, 1:40 am, ANAHEIM, CA 92899
	Acceptance, June 08, 2009, 3:43 pm, OAK HARBOR, WA 98277

Plates upon plates of every type of cheese imaginable and loaves and loaves of delicious types of bread.  And to wash it all down... Framboise Lambic!

So first off, thank you to all of the people who wished me a happy birthday :)  I thought I'd just post a few pics of some of the things that I got from various people :)

( Birthday presents, behind the cut! )

I just got back from the post office.  What was I doing there? 
SENDING OUT IMMIGRATION PAPERWORK!!!
Yay!!!!!!!
I got the last package from Matt that I was waiting for today.  It had his photos and his copies of the biographical information in it.  Which means that with the exception of my photo, we had everything we needed.  So I went to dad's house, made copies of everything so I could have an identical file of everything I sent them, and then headed to the camera store to get my picture taken.
Then, off to the post office to put it in the mail.  The guy asked me if I needed insurance on it, and I said no.  The only thing worth value in there is all the time and effort and backbreaking sweat that Matt and I put into doing the whole thing!
And now we wait.

OMG  New Moon clip showed on the MTV Movie Awards.  Yay!!! *squee*!!! I can't wait!!
Damn, I should be in bed.  I have to work at 7:00a.m.!  I had to stay up and watch it though!

I just checked the status of my passport online (I've been checking every few days) and the message says that it is in the "Final processing stages"!!!  And, it should be here on or about June 6th.  Yay!!!  What an awesome birthday present!!!  I can't wait to have it in my hand and know that there is nothing standing between me and Matt seeing one another in October :)  Just over 4 months until I see my honey!

This is SO Aslan and Matt's relationship!  Now Matt understands he was doing it right all along!

So, I've nearly got all of the immigration paperwork done.  I'm just waiting on a few bits of information from Matt.  I have to write a cover letter and an explanation of how we met, and I'm good to go on my end.  Matt just has to send the G-325A form to me, as well as his Visa photo and then copies of his boarding pass and what not, and we're golden.  :)
I'm excited, but nervous and scared, all at the same time.  I have been researching this process for so long, that I hope that everything goes smoothly.  It's already an incredibly long, hard, process, that I don't want there to be any uneccesary snags in the whole deal.
I just want to be with him.  I want to hold him in my arms again and know that I don't ever have to let him go.  It's what keeps us going... Knowing that after all of this, we will be together.
We just have to be patient... (So, NOT my best trait!)

Well, I'm not crazy.  But my anti-depression medication, that worked for the first month or so, has decided that it doesn't want to work anymore.
I was honestly feeling better.  No more random crying.  No anxiety attacks for a month.  Then bam... Wednesday, an anxiety attack all day at work.  Then the next day, I was up and down with the anxiety.  Back and forth between panic and being fine.  And now, the last two days, I've just been feeling depressed and down in the dumps...  
I have an appointment for June 4th to go back in and do a progress update with my doctor.  I don't think I want to wait for another 3 weeks, however.  I'm going to call tomorrow and see about getting in sooner.
I don't know if she'll maybe up my dose, or want to try a different medication.  I'm worried a little about both possibilities.  Upping my dose may cause increased side effects, and I've been pretty side effect free, so far.  Changing medications, could cause the same problem...
I'm just so tired of feeling like crap.  I'm tired of the anxiety attacks.  They are so draining, mentally and physically.  I slept for 13 hours after my anxiety attack the other day.  I was so exhausted...  I just want to feel normal again.  And I know that pills aren't a miracle cure.  I'm just so, so frustrated that I had an anxiety attack when I felt like I was making progress.  It just made me feel like I was having a complete 180 switch.

My tooth hurts, and my dentist appointment isn't until Tuesday morning at 8:30a.m... Sadists.
Seriously, this is probably going to cost me a fortune, and I really can't afford it.  But, it's either that, or wait until my teeth start falling out, or it just becomes infected and I die.  Yay for more debt...

I just made mashed potatoes, chicken and corn and peas to bring to work for dinner tonight!  No more calories than one of those frozen meals and a hell of a lot more tasty!

Well, I managed to find Matt from 5000 miles away.  I would say that it is a pretty good reason to believe in fate.